It's good to be back

It's a weird feeling coming back here, writing again as an adult. As a 26 years old woman (Well heck, I'm turning 27 on July 7th this year) I used to write a lot when I was younger, I've forgotten how much I love blogging. I didn't forget actually. Honestly, I was just avoiding. 

I guess, I was just avoiding speaking about my thoughts and feelings as I grow older, It's a scary feeling sharing your thoughts and feelings to the world, honestly. 

I'm a different person when I write. Vulnerable. The term "Vulnerable" scares a lot of people including me but I realise I didn't write for the world to see. I write because I really enjoyed it, It's like pouring my heart out when I feel like I'm not being heard. It's a comfortable space, where I can be myself and being honest about myself. 

Going through my draft and reading my thoughts since 2012. gives me a goosebumps. I realise I haven't changed a bit. My views in life, thoughts and feelings has always been the same. It's just I have more control over my emotions. Control or avoiding? I don't know. I just believe that, feelings are temporary. 

You know what they said? "Manage your mind because your thoughts control your life." 

As I'm writing this, I still have goosebumps all over my body. It feels like a Deja-vu. Reminiscing over a young girl , sitting in the corner of her bed in the middle of the night, writing her thoughts and feelings while everybody's asleep. Still am now, except ALONE with 2 furry family. 

Anyways, It's good to be back. I'll come back with a little life update about my simple life next time. 

Goodbye for now. 

with love,